omg this blog might kill me – DRAMA. this should have posted earlier today but there were issues that i can’t explain because i don’t understand . i’m sure there are hiccups and i’m sorry.
1st, i realize that i’m back after ANOTHER blogging break. while i could easily blame it on the spawn that is slowly growing in my tummy*, my excuse (this time) is that our server has been down for the last two weeks. if i had bitched and complained about this problem more i’m pretty sure that ABN would have gotten around to repairing the issue more quickly but truth is, napping is a much higher priority even than bitching so…we’re just up and running now.
i think i’ve mentioned our plan to send EBN to a jewish preschool before. i feel like there are a lot of preconceived plans/ideas/ideals that we bring to the table before having kids (“my kiddo won’t have plastic toys” and “i’ll make my own baby food” were just a few of mine that were thrown out the window before leaving the hospital). but some of these “plans” we hold on to a bit tighter and for us (or me) jewish preschool was one of those. no.matter.what. so what if we live 30 minutes (in rush hour traffic) from the synagogue. who cares if there is no carpool. and the fact that there are a slew of good preschools in our neighborhood – i still wouldn’t budge.
i had my doubters (and in the last few weeks leading up to the start of school, when i was feeling my early-pregnancy worst – i even doubted myself). but after exactly
3 4 days of school (at just an hour and a 20 minutes each – apparently some kids take time to adjust – ha!), i’m absolutely certain that we’ve made the right decision.
not only is EBN loving school (today as we pulled into the parking lot she said exactly those words) but she’s spending time a few times a week in the jewish environment that our lives have been lacking over the last several years. i’m not just talking about our move to pacifica – the truth is ever since we left the east coast we’ve really struggled to find and establish our own jewish community. part of that is that we had a truly idealized situation in boston (you know, where our best friend was also our rabbi) and i got used to feeling special. it was hard for me to be just one of many and to not have a real place.
in the last week though, it’s felt like we’re at the beginning stages of finding a really wonderful community for our family. the kids are adorable, the school is everything i could ask for and more and the other mamas seem pretty great as well.
in addition, one of my very closest friends from college (and a fellow redhead to boot) has moved to the area (during my blogging hiatus – hence, no update until now) with her sweet family. i can’t tell you what it means to have a real bestie who happens to be at the same stage in life. i love her kid. i love her husband. we all fit together quite well. to make things even more better (because that’s a thing) she’s a rabbi which means i’m back to having my own personal on-call clergy just a town or two away – which happens to be my preferred way of life.
i still feel like i’m lacking a spiritual home – the truth is that in my list of priorities that need is no where near the top. one day, maybe, but for now, i’ll take my very happy little girls singing, “i’ve got that shabbat feeling,” at the top of her lungs.
* we have a revised due date for bbn2. the reasoning is super technical and confusing and has to do more with me being a space case than with anything else. turns out the kiddo will cook just a few days longer (the doctor didn’t seem to think i would mind when she pushed things back by 4 days but as someone who has been there – 4 days is gonna feel like an eternity). we’re now expecting bbn2 on march 7th which seems fitting as it was the REAL NANI’s birthday. what could be better?Read More