it’s amazing how good you can feel after getting (almost) 4 hours of uninterrupted sleep, when that much sleep has escaped you for so long. i write that with not a hint of sarcasm. as i sip my coffee, project runway streams in the background, and Z sits on his play-mat, aggressively manhandling a caterpillar toy. all feels pretty right with the world. except that it’s still dark. and you know, almost 4 hours is enough sleep for…no one.
it’s been a long couple of weeks in casa bn since returning from our summer in westport. it has been oh so good to be home, to catch up with friends, to hike and run along our coast, to play in our spaces, to cook in our kitchen, to sleep in our beds…well, some of us anyway. but transition is tough for a 5 month old (yeah, totally missed that post) and an almost 4 year old (as she will readily tell you) and so is teething. on all of us.
turns out EBN must have been the easiest baby on the planet – ever – because Z continues to give us, me, a run for my money. he won’t take a bottle. he doesn’t sleep through the night and his teeth are causing (us all) quite a bit of pain. typical baby stuff – but hard and exhausting none the less. the kid is SO stinking cute, it’s sorta unbelievable. i think that god must have a greater plan – like this kid has to be tough because otherwise i’d want a boatload. but the kid also has to be beyond cute because, boy, this kid is tough. did i mention he sits? because he does. like a pro. and he loves his mama most of all – duh.
EBN starts school a week from monday, not that i’m keeping track :). although in all honesty, she is too. oh, and a last minute change in plans: she is going 5 mornings a week. we’ve been going back and forth with the decision for a while, well, i have anyway. i think that ABN mostly felt ok leaving the final call up to me. we all know that she loves school like WOAH, but i also want her to keep her very strong connections here in pacifica. but this year many of her pacifica friends are also doing preschool in the am and with afternoons still free – 5 days felt like the right option in our house. she’s already asked if she can go 6 days next year so i think she’s feeling pretty good about things.
while we anxiously wait for school to start we’ve been filling our days with mini pacifica adventures (bug catching with friends), a million projects (legos and beading are big these days), the last few swim lessons (my girl has GOT this) and of course, helping to raise Z. i literally have no idea what i would do without EBN by my side. she is so helpful and whenever she walks in the room Z gets the biggest smile on his face. he just loves his sister – and so do i.
ABN has been working a lot which is what was expected – and tough (theme?). he’s excited but also stressed and i’m supportive but also stressed and so it’s a difficult balance (often shifting more towards the stressed side for both of us). last night, after i put both kids to bed and realized that we had no chocolate in the house (how this is possible i do not know) ABN saved the day by stopping at safeway on the way home (which wasn’t until close to 11pm) and picking up an its it. #herostatus.